MISUNDERSTOOD

DOES BEING A PLAYER REPUTATION EVER GO AWAY?
SOMETIMES I SIT IN MY ROOM AND WRITE ON MY WALL
THINKING TO MYSELF WHY DO OTHERS WANT TO SEE ME FALL
JUST BECAUSE I'M LIGHT SKINNED PEOPLE ASSUME ME TO BREAK HEARTS
AND CAUSE TEARS
BUT LOSING THE GIRL I LOVE IS ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEARS
WE WILL LAUGH
WE WILL CRY
WE WILL MAKE MEMORIES
AND WE WILL DIE
AND I WILL LOVE HER FOREVER, AND THAT IS NOT A LIE
I JUST WANT TO LOVE AND BE LOVED IN RETURN
I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE USHER
I CAN'T LET IT BURN
I WANT TO LET IT FLOW
LIKE A OCEAN OR A RIVER
AND JUST HER SLIGHTEST TOUCH WILL MAKE ME SHIVER
IT WILL MAKE ME WEAK
TO THE POINT I CAN'T SPEAK
AND WHEN I GET HER IN THE BED...SHE'S GONNA REACH HER PEAK
MAKE HER BUST... MAKE HER BUST...ALL OVER MY SHEETS
MAKE HER TREMBLE...MAKE HER TREMBLE...DOWN TO HER FEET
I HAVEN'T FOUND HER AND UNTIL THEN I WILL TAKE A SEAT
AND WAIT FOR HER TO COME AROUND...SO OUR HEARTS CAN MEET

THE ILLUSIONIST

THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I HAVE EVER PUT SOMEONE ELSE'S WRITING ON MY PAGE BUT I WAS VERY INSPIRED BY THIS PERSON. SHE IS A VERY GOOD WRITER AND SHE IS VERY WELL SPOKEN. HER POEMS HAVE MEANING AND I COULD FEEL EVERY WORD SHE WAS SAYING. SHE HAS A LOT MORE POEMS THAN THIS ONE BUT I THINK THIS ONE IS MY FAVORITE. HER NAME IS COURTNEY MASON. I THINK THIS IS ONE OF THOSE TIMES WHEN THEY SAY LIFE IS NOT MEASURED BY HOW MANY BREATHES YOU TAKE, ITS MEASURED BY HOW MANY MOMENTS TAKE YOUR BREATHE AWAY AND SHE TOOK MINE AWAY WITH HER WRITING =)

i aint never been a quitter but,
this right here, kinda tough.
i can say i been in love,
but not necesarily loved.
i work hard for sure,
but it seems like i struggle more
im living my life with the vision in front of me,
but i cant seem to unlock the door.
i hate being ignored
but i guess the world dont believe me
cause i can scream, cry, & yell
but still, nobody see's me.
damnn..
life aint easy
but this cant be
destiny cause
Sister Kimberly from the mothers Ministry told me God had more instore for me.
But, where's it being stored at, & who got the key?
Beats me.
but ay,
it is what it is, right?
but what if what is, is actually not?
what if everything that could be a possibility..stopped.
what if,
everything i thought was lost and never again was sought after because i lost..
my inspiration.
because of separation..& deprivation..of dedication
from the people who i thought were..real.
so, in conclusion
i considering people caring
might as well be an an illusion
because in the midst of confusion,
all the people who you thought were there, you'll end up losing
them.
when shit gets dim
so my philosophy is in the end..
learn how to defend, yourself, from them. cause if you dont..
i guess you'll just end up like me.

remix.

I'm not a quitter, but wondering why so many quit her/
Her as in me, me as in she/
One of the realest, but still end up in last place.

No love, no love, but always one level above/
Looked up to, like a basement does a top floor/
Underestimated, but worth much more.

My eyes can tell lies, don't be surprised when you're caught/
Worth more than anything that can be store bought/
Scars talk, but what about the ones on the heart/
The ones that tell a story before we even talk.

Hardworking, but I still struggle/
That's life, no complaints, no trouble/
Wake up, it's a new day, another day to right my wrongs/
Another chance to do good and another to move on.

They talk about me, want my heart to show through my skin/
I strive to be the best, 'cause success is the best revenge...

RELATIONSHIPS

A RELATIONSHIP IS WHEN YOU AND THAT SIGNIFICANT OTHER LOVE BEING AROUND EACH OTHER, YOU HAVE THE MOST AMAZING TIME WHEN YOU HANG OUT AND YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE TO BE DOING ANYTHING SPECIAL, YOU ARE WITH EACH OTHER BECAUSE YOU ARE INFATUATED WITH THE 'INSIDE" AS WELL AS THE OUTSIDE. A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE SHALLOW AND GO OUT WITH SOMEONE JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE CUTE OR THEY KNOW THEY CAN "FUCK" ALL THE TIME, WHICH ISN'T A REASON TO TALK TO SOMEONE. A RELATIONSHIP IS A BOND THAT YOU FORM BECAUSE YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO BE ABLE TO TELL THAT PERSON ANYTHING AND KICK IT WITH HIM/HER LIKE YOUR HOMIES. BECAUSE BEFORE YOU FORM A RELATIONSHIP, YOU BECOME FRIENDS...HELL BEST FRIENDS AND YOU GET TO KNOW THE PERSON ON A DEEP LEVEL, THEN YOU GO FROM THERE. I HATE IT WHEN I SEE PEOPLE GO OUT BECAUSE SHE LOOK CUTE DOG OR MAN THAT NIGGA BODY OFF THE CHAIN...WTF? THAT SHIT MAKES NO SENSE TO ME. THATS LIKE THAT MIDDLE SCHOOL SHIT OR SOMETHING. NOW LETS TALK ABOUT LOVE.....WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE, IT KILLS YOU TO HURT THEM AND IT STAYS ON YOUR MIND. IF YOU IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE AND YOU CHEATING ON THEM EVERY OTHER WEEKEND WITH SOME BITCH/NIGGA THEN YOU REALLY DON'T LOVE THAT PERSON BECAUSE YOU WOULDN'T WANT TO HURT THEM IN ANY SORT OF WAY AND IF YOU DO CHEAT YOU WOULD HAVE ENOUGH "RESPECT" FOR THE PERSON TO TELL HER/HIM. BECAUSE WHEN YOU ARE IN LOVE, THE WHOLE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND THEM....NOT YOU! YOU THINK ABOUT THEM WHEN YOU WAKE UP UNTIL YOU GO TO BED, YA'LL TALK ON THE PHONE ALL NIGHT AND IF THEY GO TO BED AND YOU STILL UP, YOU LISTEN TO THEM SLEEP UNTIL YOU GO TO BED, YOU SEND THEM CUTE TEXTS THROUGHOUT THE DAY SAYING I MISS YOU OR I LOVE YOU, YOU BUY THEM GIFTS, "JUST BECAUSE", YOU TELL THEM GOOD MORNING AND GOODNIGHT, AND YOU MAKE SURE YOU MAKE THEM FEEL LIKE THEY HAVE THE WORLD. THATS WHAT REAL LOVE IS...AND WHEN SHE/HE TELLS YOU THEY LOVE YOU...YOUR HEART STOPS EVERY TIME BECAUSE IT MAKES YOU FEEL THAT SPECIAL. SO PLEASE DON'T JUMP INTO A RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE AT LEAST ONE PERSON IS GONNA GET HURT AND ITS A WASTE OF THEIR TIME AND YOURS. JUST WAIT UNTIL THAT ONE COMES AROUND AND MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE NOTHING IN THE WORLD MATTERS BUT "YOU".

THATS WHY I DON'T HAVE A GIRLFRIEND BECAUSE I HAVEN'T MET ANYONE THAT MAKES ME FEEL THAT WAY OR CLOSE TO IT. MOST GIRLS I HAVE MET IN GA HAVE BEEN ABOUT GAMES OR JUST A PHYSICAL ATTRACTION. I LIKE YOUNG WOMEN THAT CAN STIMULATE MY MIND AND MAKE ME THINK, SOMEONE WITH "SUBSTANCE", THATS MY TRUE TURN ON. I LIKE CHICKS THAT DO THE LITTLE STUFF THAT NO ONE ELSE NOTICES BECAUSE TO ME, THOSE ARE THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY. AND JUST BECAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE THE NICE CAR OR THE MONEY AND STUFF DOESN'T MEAN I WOULDN'T TALK TO YOU...SHIT I DON'T CARE IF YOU DON'T HAVE A CAR AS LONG AS YOU RESPECT AND CARE ABOUT ME.


I HAVE NOTICED THAT MOST GIRLS AROUND HERE HAVE BEEN HURT SO MANY TIMES THAT THEY CANNOT COUNT THEM, EVEN IF THEY TRIED AND VICE VERSA. BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN SHUT EVERY GUY DOWN THAT COMES YOUR WAY OR BE A PLAYER FOR NO REASON...WHATS THE POINT? ITS NOT GETTING YOU ANYWHERE IN LIFE, BUT GIVING YOU A NAME LIKE A GOLD DIGGER OR A HOE, SO DON'T EVEN DO IT. FIND YOU A GOOD GUY THAT WILL TREAT YOU RIGHT INSTEAD OF SOMEONE WITH THE MONEY, CARS, AND THE CLOTHES. THAT DOESN'T MAKE THE MAN, THE MAN MAKES THAT. ITS NOT ABOUT WHERE YOU COME FROM, ITS ABOUT WHERE YOUR GOING.

OH YEA AND ONE LAST THING LADIES

FACT: NIGGAS AIN'T SHIT (YOU ARE RIGHT)

THE TRICK TO FINDING A MAN THAT WILL RESPECT YOU IS TO TALK TO A MAN NOT A BOY. A NIGGA IS SOMEONE THAT IS ABOUT BULLSHIT, THE BASIC STEREOTYPE, DOESN'T THINK FOR HISSELF, AND WORRY ABOUT WHAT OTHERS WILL PORTRAY HIM AS.

A YOUNG MAN/MAN IS SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES FEELINGS, HE CARES ABOUT WHAT HE IS TRYING TO DO WITH HIS LIFE AND NOTHING IS GOING TO GET IN THE WAY OF HIM AND THAT. HE HAS GOALS AND HE ACTUALLY WANTS TO DO SOMETHING WITH HIS LIFE BESIDES PLAYING VIDEO GAMES WITH HIS BOYS AND OTHER USELESS STUFF. A MAN IS SOMEONE WHO WILL PROVIDE FOR YOU AND IF YOU ARE WITH HIM AND YOU NEED SOMETHING, HE WILL GIVE YOU HIS LAST JUST TO SEE YOU SUCCEED IN LIFE AND WHEN TIMES GET HARD HE WILL STAY WITH YOU EVEN IF ITS NOT THE BETTER DECISION FOR HIM BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU. A MAN KNOWS HOW TO ADMIT TO HIS FLAWS AND HIS MISTAKES AND HOPES THAT YOU WILL ACCEPT HIM.

THATS WHAT A MAN IS LADIES. SO BEFORE YOU TALK TO SOMEONE, LOOK AT THAT AND ASK YOURSELF DO YOU THINK HE IS THAT AND WILL HE DO THOSE THINGS FOR YOU.

HERE'S ANOTHER FACT

LADIES TALK TO THE BAD GUYS BECAUSE THEY LIKE THEIR EDGE. YOU DON'T FOR THE GOOD ONES BECAUSE YOU DON'T LIKE TO PLAY IT SAFE. IT'S LIKE YOU KNOW HE WILL TREAT YOU RIGHT BUT YOU DON'T WANT HIM BECAUSE YOU WANT A DUDE WITH MORE ATTITUDE, AND THAT'S WHERE YOUR GOING WRONG!

HOW CAN YOU TELL

How you can tell somebody don't want to be with you.......... We all may have had a situation where we really wanted to be with somebody and they were everything that you thought you wanted and you may have got with them, it did not work out, you broke up, then you may have gotten back together. Or you may have had the situation where you wanted to be with somebody and they showed you interest, but just not enough for you to know whether or not they wanted to make something happen. BOTTOM LINE is that we need to stop wasting time with dead situations and if the person is not acting right THEN YOU AND I SHOULD MOVE ON. Ways to know whether the person you are dealing with really wants to be with you. 1. Do you talk to them on a regular basis? If not they probably got another idea going on in their head. They could possible be keeping you around until they find what they really want. If a person really likes you then they want to call and they want to spend time. IF they think you are just ok and not good enough, then that is how they will treat you as just OK. 2. If you all use to be together and they all of a sudden want to work it out. If this is truly meant to be then you should make them wait until you here clearly from the Lord. If you explain that to them and they still going on dates with other people GUESS WHAT YOU JUST BECAME THEIR OPTION. If that person swears up and down that you are the one and they cannot sustain themselves for a month or so to not go on a date or be seen with other men or women you should question their real motives. 3. Check to see if they have a lot of options(as in dates or other mates). When people have a lot of options they try to find the person that they want in many people and that is why they are upset when somebody smartens up and leaves them alone. 4. Ask them what they want or better yet ask them if they really want you........ If they cannot answer the question it is probably because they do not. We spend too much time hoping that somebody will want us besides praying for God to send us somebody that will love us. Someone you "Want" is someone you can get anywhere. A person you need is someone you cant live without and they don't come around often. Won't it be so much better when you can be equally yolked with another person. Doesn't it feel better when a person loves you just as much as you love them? (I FELT THAT ONE SO MUCH I HAD TO PAUSE).................... .... .......................... .... ............... 5.Understand that the person that you like so much now is not the last person living and that there is someone out there who is going to really care for you and not just drag you along. Sometimes we have to close our eyes in order to see what it is we really need. If you think that the person who really does not like you is the best thing you can get then imagine what God can do for you if you allow him to be the one to send it to you. 6. Do not let that other person control your emotions. One of the hardest things that we run into is the control of our emotions. When we are waiting on someone to make a move we allow our emotions to take over and we worry if the person is going to make the right move when in actuality they aren't thinking about you.I know that it can be hard but being single is not the worst thing in the world and I actually love it but I do not love it forever. Eventually my time will come just like yours, but we need to stop fast forwarding to that time and just press play on the present time. God never intended for this relationship thing to be this hard and for us to be struggling with the fact of another person treating us right. We need to get into amode of prayer that will change our lives. God has someone for us but don't let somebody else play you while God is preparing you for the one you are supposed to have. Forget the lies and broken promises God is here waiting on you to come on home to a life of fulfillment and righteousness. Be easy my friends.

POSSIBILITIES

So I meet a lot of chicks and at one point I catch feelings
And I get high off their touch like I have no ceilings
But then they go away as if someone was stealing
Them away
And that day turns into just an ordinary day
And I become disappointed because I can’t drink her love up like I’m at a café
So I question myself
Am I really meant to have that untouchable love
That love that haves you on a high like your flying like a dove
That love that when your so close your like a hand to a glove
That special love that can only be sent from the great one above
You know that kind of love where you can’t sleep because reality is better than a dream
Where when they don’t tell you goodnight you just want to scream
Damn I know I’m not the only one to experience it close
If I ever get it again, I will never let it go
Because it comes around rarely like when florida gets snow
And if she tells me will I leave her I will reply no
When I see her I want it to be like that usher song “there goes my baby”
And I want the scent of her perfume to drive me really crazy
And never be afraid to tell anyone that she’s my lady
Because we can ball together, just like tracey mcgrady
But until then I guess it will just remain a dream
And if I ever bump into her I’m going to put her on my team
Keep the key to her heart and make sure I lock it twice
And if you ask me who’s life is more important I will say mine because she will be my life.

I AM AN ARTIST

who can understand an Artist. who can love an Artist . ?



my expression may not always b a smile doesnt mean im not happy tho the day has worn me heavy im juss waiting on the next cool breeze to blow by so i can catch it, flow & ride wherever it leads



Artist are very interesting people, for we see the unknown we have a sixth sense called "creativity" & it takes us beyond measures of the natural mind it can take us to places we've never been or trap us & we will isolate ourselves from the world were constantly thinking analyzing everything tho we can see the joy in things we cant always enjoy it"the greater your wisdom the greater your sorrows" & since we can see things upside down we often realize things arent hardly what they seem we love we love hard love is the biggest part of art hell its called a heART for a reason , eh? we watch the world, & write we live in our journals & numerous bookmarked google pages that help enhance our knowledge we dont like to take test, wake up early, or authoritive figures but we can tell you everything there is to know about anything you want & can go toe to toe in a battle of witts im the young philosopher of my time constantly growing as an artist we all have this burning desire to be heard the greatest agony, is carrying an untold story within you we walk the tightrope of sanity & imaginationwe hate the world, yet love it so much we want to live in it as well as save it dancing on the stars isnt beyond our step



who can love us? are we capable of giving another person more energy then we need are we too in tune with our emotions , for others to ever fully understand two artist in love will drive eachother crazy



being an artist is quite often a lonely path, we live in our minds but the world needs people like us , it isnt for everybody its not an 'artsy' persona , or a youthful trend its a mental warrior we carry the weight of the world on our soldiers we tap in the deep, while others live shallow happy lives we know the secrets of the universe & just want some type of recognition for our struggle for its not a choice but something were were born into a blessing & curse





we just want to be ...heard, quoted, loved & remembered for us, only the simple is impossible like, licking your elbow changing the world, is not!