AFFLICTION

As I reminisce on how things use to be
I realize that things could never be
I thought we were perfect...you know you and i
laughing, talking, hanging out, and having a good time
but it was all an illusion
now I am in a mass world of confusion
now I sit here and I have millions of questions
and its building on me...."I don't think I can take this combustion"
Sometimes I wonder do you really care about me
or do you do you like the thought of being with me
maybe its a game and I am not playing my cards right
maybe this is a real situation and I may not be holding on tight
whichever way it goes it stills has its effects
I won't want to look back on this in a couple of months and have regrets
Right now all I can think about is the untamed pain
As If I got into a head on car wreck because I was driving in the wrong lane
Or maybe it is driving me crazy or insane
Like I am a drug addict shooting heroine up my veins
Or maybe you just don't show me a sign of respect
Maybe you just need to sit down and reflect
About how you place your priorities
I feel like everything else is white, and I am the minority
I guess I am not part of the majority
And as I sit back and wonder, about the summer
I tend to now find it a bummer
And the longer I think the more i feel dumber
Because I feel like I was the one being used
Like we were married and I was being abused
And now everyone can see my bruise
You know the one on my heart
The one that will always remain there like its body art
But I guess it doesn't matter because you show no burden
I guess I am the only one hurting
And to you these are my last words
Goodbye, so long, i will talk to you later
Just know where my heart use to be, you turned it into a crater